Guys, I'm depressed. =(
Most part of my life I spend in Finland. I'm studied at school there. Spoke in english.
Graduated specialized English language school in Russia.
Most part of my life I even think in English.
By now I live in Russia, all my family are also here.
I have to speak russian. Everywhere. I hate this language! But it's my native ... =(
And the most terrible thing is that I have no practice in English at all, so I forgetting it very fast! My only practice is you and foreign partners at my work.
After vocation in Finland I had some positive emotions. I started to watch movies without translation, read books in English ... post my replies here, in your forum...
But now I feel that I had to stay in this idiotic contry forever. Because of family and the main thing - nobody needs me somewere else.
Sorry, just wanted to share with someone who understand me =(